Predicament

What am i trying to prove,
I question myself frequently
answers seem so galore
which keep on flashing intermittently

but there I lie in conundrum
which option to fall back on
Am I worth all these thoughts
or just some whims of days bygone

nothing sustains itself forever
the glimmer soon subsides
I am a loner in crowd of billions
where thoughtful adroits commit suicides

I may have something to show
but who cares to remember
the greats struggle to find a mention
day in and day out from January to December

I have decided finally to tread my own path
the one which saw very few succeeding
but the impetus lies on me -
to be led or be the one who is leading